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SPM is just in 17 more days.
And I'm really not ready for it
I pass every subjects for my trials,
Except science subs (chem, phy and add math)
Which is really dissapoint me
I was trying to study them all by myself
The result still, I CAN'T
Someone keep comparing me with somebody
I hate for being compared
Yes, nobody does, right?
But I have no power to talk anything
I'm the worst among all
What can I do?
Quiet and listen to them
They are the best
Everything they said,
Everything they think
And everything they decide are the best
Won't be wrong
Oh, I'm a kid
i can't do and decide anything for my life
For my future
They must decide for me
Cause I don't know how to think, they said

Why my life must be like this?
Always so unfair to me
And problems never stop come to me
Why always me?

Any answer??

i needa little freedom

i am just a dog who controlled by SOMEBODY
i dont know what to do and i cant do anythg
i feel so lonely
i have no one to understand how my feeling is
if she / he says A then i must follow
i am not a little kid anymore
why are you keep on trying to separate us?
you know who i mean by "US"
i know which way i should choose and i should not
i can choose my way by myself
i don need you to decide for me
please give me a little FREEDOM
since i was a small kid
i have been through everything
you let me feel the pain
BUT, have i ever complain anything to you?
NO! i NEVER.
i always quiet and keep it myself
who could i share to? NOBODY!
until now i have grown up,
im TRYING so hard to understand what things go
but, I CANT
its just way too hard for 17 years old girl to face it
so, i just please you now
just give me a LITTLE freedom
i don ask much. and i wont.

hope you can understand me.

:) :(

don't ever look down at me just because i cant speak english well
i know you all are very SMART person, way much different with me
i'm very stupid and lazy person, i know
i've been trying so hard until i could speak and share something with you guys now
even with broken language, i am sorry. maybe sometimes you guys do not understand what i am talking about
don't ever judge me
you are not allowed to judge me
think of yourself before talk about me
can you speak my language well?
can you????
if you don't, don't talk bout other people
we are the same
i cant speak your language well, so do you =)
there are many countries with different languages
not just your language in the world.
THANKS

wohooo. went to KL tower last holiday.
nothing much in there.
but no choice
my uncle and family wanted to see
so,, baby and I brought them there, since my mom not free that day
its so damn expensive!
once go in need to pay rm4x for adults if im not mistaken.
dunno 4x for adults or children zzz
i wont ever go there if not cause of my uncle LOL

take I

take II

wkakka cute right? :p

baby, celine, puppy and i :)

study together with celine :p

hmmm that's for moral project!
not fake. i always do it, haha
i'm a good student and daughter :p

now i go to school everyday!
study study study.
gonna start tuition soon
hope i can concentrate on it!
no more go out
SPM is coming ! awww T.T
im very scared :((

awww. been like a pig these few weeks.
oh no! bout last 2 weeks my uncle and family come from indo, 2 family
my uncle bring his friends and family too
but the funny part was, that 2 family don want to meet each other,bcause of some problem between the wifes!
lolx
so my mom and i have to go here, go there
lets say, uncle A n B.
when my mom with uncle A and family, i had to be with uncle B!
lucky got my baby~ always drive me here and there
and he was the one who is so patient to face them, even me also i cant to stand them. but he could!! im so proud of him! he's so so so so nice too me, always treat me so well.
even sometimes im being childish and cant control my temper, but he still treat me so nice
when im angry, he never do it back to me. he even become more nice to me.
i don know how to thank him T.T i cant control my temper, i always easily get angry. i wanna change! but it is so hard!
he never complain about me, he always love me. love him so much!
okok back to the topic.
been very tired these weeks.
accompany them was even more tired than i go to school.
always woke up early morning and rush here and there until late at night. then at night still had to accompany them chit chat-ed.
some times i cant stand of my tiredness, and i ask for permission to go back to baby's house :)
otherwise, my baby would always fall asleep on the couch! ahaha cute baby! fall asleep with the face covered by the pillow xD
oh ya! these few weeks also i came to school once a week ! omg!
and it will be always on tues!
i've left behind,, so farrr away! i don know whether i can follow them up or not.
wake up xta! don let your brain keep sleep only! let it work.
oh ya i forgot to mention bout my uncle's daughter. omg!
she's the most naughty kid who i ever seen in my life.
until i also don know how to describe her. hmm
anyway, they went back yesterday.
i hope my life will be back to normal soon.

now got many peoples get sick. fever, flu etc.
h1n1 virus. everybody must take care of yourself ya :D
drink lots lots of water and make sure you have enough sleep :)

xta

lazy dayy`

planned to go to school today
but finally didnt go
too lazy to woke up
woke up at 8 cause my phone's alarm rang zzz =="
off it, went back to sleep
around 1030 woke up and put my contact lens on
went down, switched on the tv
lay back on the sofa
fell asleep until around 3 pm! omg!
was shock when saw my phone, it showed 3.09pm
so i chg position from lay down to sat down!
avoid from being lazy more longer lol
then i was starving but my house had no food prepared
so i cooked maggie :(
how sad had to cook myself
after that went to shower and on9 until now!
what a lazy day ~
tom have to wake up early to go to school, since i've skipped school for so many days :))
im too lazy to go to school
school is killing me ! i hate school !

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OMG!
so long i never open my blog ady D: its okay, i dont think got people read my blog :DD BORING blog =X

EXAMS are driving me crazy i need ppl to help me out from my laziness ==" otherwise i will left behind all the time @@

a weeks to go !!